Love is not easily angered
As I'm sitting here thinking about what angers me I've noticed something: I keep drawing a line between 'angry' and 'annoyed.'
Thought One: "Hmm people being rude makes me annoyed."
Thought Two: "Yeah but that's not really being 'easily angered' so that's ok."
Is it ok to get annoyed and think unkind, judgemental thoughts about someone because they did something you didn't like?
One scenario that particularly bothers me is when people are trying to get off the train and the people waiting on the platform don't wait and push ahead. That really ticks me off. I get all indignant even when I'm the one waiting on the platform and not even remotely affected by it.
I think it strikes of rudeness, impatience and a lack of consideration for other's needs.
So I silently fume about it, grumbling away in my head and judging their actions. It easily to let this build up until I'm positively cross about it.
Notice in none of the above did I use the word "angry."
But I am angry.
And this kind of thing easily angers me. I go from happy and carefree to downright ticked off at someone else's largely harmless mistake. I say 'mistake' because there have been several times where I thought it was okay to get on the train and it turned out there were still several people trying to get out. Whoops. I made a mistake, it happens.
Yes there are probably people who do it deliberately because they're impatient or don't care. But silently (or even audibly) judging them isn't going to change anything. But forgiveness will. Forgiveness brings peace to your heart and frees you from judgement.
So, to the two ladies who rushed in as I was trying to exit the train this afternoon... I forgive you.